His Plan

Telling others was a little tough.

We heard a lot of "Didn't you just have a baby?"

To tell my side of the family, we put Noah in a little t-shirt that I had made him while we were on our annual Wisconsin vacation.

It had a line of elephants across the front and it said Big Brother 2003. I put him down in the family room where many of us were gathered and let him crawl around on the floor.

I don't remember who saw it first, but everyone was a bit shocked.

I was pretty disappointed. I cried.

Everyone seemed more concerned than happy. That hurt me a lot.

I was really hoping Tom and I would get support.

I must say that God gave me an incredible husband to live my life here on Earth with. We accept that God won't give us more than we can handle - and we are grateful.

I honestly felt very lonely during this pregnancy.

I focused a lot on Tom and our boys.

We didn't tell many other people I was pregnant. I actually kind of liked having this little "secret." I loved my husband and our sons and I loved this little baby. And I knew in my heart that everyone else would love this little baby too.

This child was given to us by God. This child was part of His plan for us.