First Days

I held Cameron in my arms.

I looked him over. Beautiful.

I had expected a dark-haired girl and here I held a bald little boy.

(In my heart, I believe the little girl who hugged me on my bench and walked into the garden was our baby we had miscarried. Her name is Veronica Rose.)

Cameron James was a sweet little baby. Adorable. I was actually thrilled that Jacob had a little brother. His closest brother in age was Noah, and there is over 8 years between them. Jacob and Cameron would get to do a lot of "boy" things together. I was, I am, looking forward to it.

We called our children and let them know they had another little brother. Our girls had wanted a sister - mainly so we wouldn't get outnumbered by the boys, but they were still very excited to hear about CJ.

Unfortunately, a couple of our kiddos had fevers, so not everyone got to meet Cameron at the hospital. Sarah and Jacob had to wait until we went home.

The other 5 came back with Tom and our neighbor the next day. Our neighbor / friend

is a photographer, so she came and took some adorable pictures of Cameron in the hospital. Better get used to it - I love taking photos!

The one concern I had was with Cameron's eyes.

The moment he was born, I noticed something in his eyes. I tried to say something right away, but no one else could see it.

The next day I insisted that the pediatrician look at his eyes. She saw something too. I "begged" her to have an eye doctor looked at him as soon as possible. I couldn't sleep. I was worried.

An eye doctor came in and told us that Cameron had cysts in his eyes. He had several in one eye and a few in the other. We would have to bring him in and keep a close eye on the cysts. I told her that when Brandon was born I saw one on his eye, but no doctor would ever look into it and find out what it was. Now we knew. And thankfully it has never bothered Brandon.

We pray that Cameron's cysts don't cause him any discomfort or threaten his eyesight. And at first, whenever I looked at his eyes, that is all I could focus on. But in reality, Cameron has big beautiful blue eyes.

He is a very happy baby who is very loved.

He fits right into our family.