The Bench Dream

Jacob was a sweet little baby. So cute.

It was fun to have a little boy again. I think I was sort of expecting a boy

this time. The baby book we bought was blue. We bought him a stuffed dinosaur while we were at a special "dinosaur" display at our zoo while I was pregnant.

And then there was the dream while I was pregnant.

I read once that there is a bench where your children you will have someday sit. I had a dream about this bench. I saw a bench with a little boy sitting on it. I went up to the bench and said hello to the little boy.

He just smiled. He had beautiful eyes that were full of joy.

He sat with his hands on his lap and his legs were rocking forward and back. He was so excited. So happy. I asked him his name, but the boy wouldn't talk. He just had a huge smile on his face.

I told Tom about my dream. Could this be our child I was seeing?

The next night I saw the boy again.

I went up to him and I asked him about the child we had lost by miscarriage.

He gave me a sweet smile, then reached down next to himself and picked up a seed that was on the bench. He held the seed in his hand then blew on it softly. The seed floated in the air and went over a tall white fence into a beautiful flower garden. The seed landed on the ground and then it grew into a big beautiful flower - the prettiest I have ever seen.

I looked back at the boy and he just smiled at me.

I can still picture that little boy - and Jacob does remind me of him.

Jacob has the most beautiful eyes. The most beautiful smile.

He is a very happy boy. A very quiet boy.

After my dreams, Tom wanted to know if I saw anymore children on my bench.